This blog fell apart as soon as it began.
I created the website when a clergy friend of mine, who had been discussing my work with a colleague, asked me if I had a website to which he could refer people. I had never considered the possibility before and figured it could be an interesting project.
The blog began at a time when things felt like they were coming together professionally: I was midway through my doctoral work; I was regularly presenting my work in conferences and getting published. I figured it could be a way to connect people to professional updates, and to provide a platform for occasional reflections that were more accessible than my academic writings.
Then Covid happened.
I don’t need to detail much of my experience during that time. God knows we all have some amount of trauma from those years.
In addition to all the stress and isolation, I began to experience a vocational and religious crisis. The God I had devoted my life to studying had turned into an empty and irrelevant abstraction. After feeling disconnected from my Unitarian ecclesial context, I made the decision to leave the movement all together. I increasingly doubted my future in the academy. In light of this, I doubted the value of my scholarship and of the discipline of theology in general.
So I disappeared. I took some time off, left Boston, and left the academy behind, unsure if I would actually come back. I welcomed my son into the world. I worked a normal job. I tried to rebuild my life. The biggest surprise, I returned to Christianity, the tradition that I had been raised in, and whose intellectual traditions I had spent the past several years of my life studying.
I am now slowly returning to the academy. This summer I delivered my first conference paper in more than two years, at the annual meeting of the Institute for American Religious and Philosophical Thought. I officially resumed my program at Boston University, but from the comforts of my Minnesota home, and I have undertaken my first major writing project since 2020.
Today I decided to resurrect this website. I’m not sure where my journey is headed, but I know that my life-long quest for ultimacy is not over. I am looking forward to continuing to develop my vocation as a theologian and philosopher of religion and figuring out how I can use that vocation to serve the church in and out of the academy.
Thank you, dear readers, for your time.